Sunday, January 25, 2009
painful new yr..
nobody i knew would hav a more painful new yr than me.my eyelids grew wad ppl sae " bat jium ".and its not 1, but 2.my lower eyelid, closest to the beginning of the eye, grew 1, very big one.my upper eyelid,at the tail of the eye, grew 1, small one.the lower eyelid's ripe, there's parse, and it was very swollen since ytd...ytd after i went BBQ gathering with primary school frens, its still ok..till i get home, it slowly swollen and get bigger.loads of tears.and because its chuxi today i thought no clinic will be open.till my parents brought me to the same clinic abt 1 yr plus ago i went for the same problem.same eye, same area...i was given an injection on the bottom of the outer eyelid.anesthetic.it was pain..i cried..cuz its piercing into my skin!thn abt 5 mins later, when the anesthetic took place,using a scalpel and cut on my lower ryrlid.not once, but 3 times.it was fcuking painful!i bleed,parse was out.cant really open my eyes.tear=ed alot..doc say it will hav a slight blueblack bruise cuz of the injection.it will tke at least 1 wk to recover.same place to be cut by scalpel, ouch..it still hurt alot now,like small little pins slightly piercing at my eyelids.i don think its happy new yr..its painful new yr.if i ever typed wrong, please 4give me,cuz i cant really see properly,i only got 1 eye to see...
5:21 PM
Friday, January 16, 2009
someone.....
why some ppl jus cant get over with the past, cant move on and look forward...
after setting up your mind to get a new life and abandon e old,
yet still allow urself to reminiscence abt e past..
and think abt e same person, get "poisoned" by him...
mayb you just want to experience that type of happiness u felt tt time again...
or even, u're just making it a habit to love him,
tts y u always seems to think tat you still love him,
and can't get over with it...
if he doesn't show a single concern or anxious abt u,
wad for still waste ur energy and love on him?
worthless....
hav u ever thot, wad if its not only you who got "poisoned" by him?
wad if its not only you who's missing him, missing the past that they used to have?
how would u feel then,
will you still feel ur heart's lonliness and the need of his love?
the "shared" reminiscence of the past??
too naive....
he's not as good as you think...
thinking back abt happy times feels good...
but tt doesn't mean it will happen again with the same guy...
hopefully you will get over with it someday....
4get abt being stucked with him,
find a new life,
and b happy abt it :)
3:08 AM
Friday, January 02, 2009
2009
second day of 2009....
honestly,
i don tink 2009 will be great.
quite a few arguments happened for me..
wondering if it is sis's pms or wad, her tone of talking is always so hacked care and rude,full of anxiety.
why can't she calm down and talk nicely when i'm talking to her nicely?
cant she treat us as nice as how she treats her friends?
a simple explanation i want to tell her, she just say " go away lah, i don wanna listen " .........
problem : as a school teacher who has a laptop loan to her by the school, her own laptop died on her long time ago.
her solution: buy a macbook.my analysis: for someone as a secondary school teacher, there should be no use for mac's creative softwares, so it defeats the purpose of using a macbook. hmm,may be she do not know the different system that is used, so i will explain to her wad's macintosh system and windows system.
so i went on thinking to explain to her, and she said " ya rite i wanna buy a macbook wad", thn she mistakenly said "imac", which is a desktop mac, so i said, "you want a desktop??"and she said "no, i say laptop mah", i really want her to understand by buying a macbook, you use macintosh system, even if you were to partition and change the system fully into windows, you still need the windows vista/xp authetication code from the disc that you bought, and you will need to spend at least 300+ more for that software, and upgrading the specs of the macbook so as to make it last longer, warranty cost almost 500. so how much will she have to spend?? answer= 2100(assumed)+300+500= almost 3000 for a macbook that she doesnt really need, and she could hav used tt money to buy other brands which hav better specs w/o e need of upgrading, using windows system, no extra cost of softwares and plus warranty of min 1 yr.
forget it if she don understands, let her learn the hard way...
same goes for getting a new car...
if she thinks she can always use dad's money for car expenses, then she's wrong...
she should b e one spending car expenses on her own money since she's working already, which makes no diff from big sis, as she pay for herself too..
stubborn!
i've been visiting baby chloe since i came back from taiwan..
she's taller, fatter, bigger..
by cny, she would be 4 mths old..
ytd she's officially 2 mths old! :)
all i want for a new yr is a new start....
i want ...
family to hav less arguments,
dad and mum to nag less and don b so sensitive to issues,
bro in law and family to be healthy and hav more financial freedom,
my family to be healthy,
my piano retake exam will come out good,
school and projects to be done with my effort,
try not to be late for school,
less troubles so that i won't hav so much small tiny pimples popping out!
manage my time better,
get moving on from getting a piano to flute tutor,
end yr2sem2 sooner.
lost sleep recently..
bad....
3:03 AM
